I wrote in my blog “A change of plan”in March about Saturns retrograde transit in Scorpio and the necessity of waiting on deeply held plans. In particular projects and dreams involving time, love and money. As well, the deep connections, inner and outer contracts and resources held between people. Well the waiting is now over and it is time to proceed forward with the dreams incubated in October. My experience of this transit tells me that the original plan is likely to have much altered since its early inception. There may be some sadness, regret or disappointment that things haven’t quite turned out as planned during the retrograde period February – July. However, I recently read an amazing piece by David Whyte, the organisational poet that eloquently reflects upon the nature of disappointment. It beautifully conveys the essence of a Saturn transit to an important planet in our charts.“Disappointment is inescapable but necessary; a misunderstood mercy and when approached properly, an agency for transformation and the hidden, underground, engine of trust and generosity in a human life. The attempt to create a life devoid of disappointment is the attempt to avoid the vulnerabilities that make the conversations of life real, moving, and life-like; it is the attempt to avoid our own necessary and merciful heartbreak. To be disappointed is to reassess our self and our inner world, and to be called to the larger foundational reality that lies beyond any false self we had only projected upon the outer world.”I think this is especially apt for those of us who, born in the early Sixties will be experiencing Saturn over Neptune with all the inherent stripping of false or outmoded illusion and ideals. However, I also see that once we surrender to this it moves us closer to embodying our innate dream too.In many ways David Whyte lyrically conveys all the hidden truths about any major planetary transit but maybe more so Saturn, as there can be mourning, a sense of loss and a de-pression of sorts particularly traversing Scorpio. He continues by saying “ What we call disappointment may be just the first stage in our emancipation into the next greater pattern of existence. To be disappointed is to reappraise not only reality itself but our foundational relationship to the pattern of events places and people that surround us…”
The key word with Saturn is REALITY. We hit the boundary between imagination and reality and somewhere in between we discover the truth.
Those born in the late fifties are just in the process of Saturn in Scorpio returning to the same point in the chart as they approach being 60. A major and significant point in anyones life to steer their life’s course in their direction and on their terms.
Whilst those born in the mid eighties are currently experiencing Saturn on their natal Pluto in Scorpio and as they head into their first Saturn returns will be reflecting on, as they approach 30, literally the life enhancing or decaying sense of who am I and what do I really want to do and become.
Whyte sums up Saturn perfectly, “The measure of our courage is the measure of our willingness to embrace disappointment, to turn towards it rather than away…Disappointment is a friend to transformation, a call to both accuracy and generosity in the assessment of our self and others, a test of sincerity and a catalyst of resilience. Disappointment is just the initial meeting with the frontier of an evolving life, an invitation to reality, which we expected to be one particular way and turns out to be another, often something more difficult, more overwhelming and strangely, more rewarding.”
So here is to that disappointment, let me know where it leads.
Excerpt from DISAPPOINTMENT taken from the upcoming reader’s circle essay series. ©2013 David Whyte